Friday, July 31, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
I realized when I put "why am I always so relentlessly happy" as my status a few days ago .. that even if I'm angry, hungry, hurt or sad .. I'm still kind of a little bit happy.
Then I started keeping a list about why. Here's why.
Feel free to add your own, comment or question.
"HOW TO BE RELENTLESSLY HAPPY"
1. Have few wants.
2. Do not try to be in a romantic relationship with someone who doesn't love and respect you, deeply.
3. Give a lot, often, and without expectation of return or reward.
4. Take the time to connect with children or animals whenever you encounter them.
6. Make eye contact and a mental note of respect toward all living things that you encounter.
7. Don't wait to say something caring. Say it right then.
8. Share what you have and don't overly think about it. In a very real way, nothing you have is really yours.
9. Cook and share what you cook. Good smells around the house .. happy.
10. Have art around you. Have books around you. These things and food cooking will bring people and other people are the closest and most usual experience of God that you will have in this lifetime.
11. Let yourself feel your feelings. But then remember that not all feelings are facts. Question it, is there another way to look at it?
12. Laugh at yourself, lovingly. No one laughs harder when I trip on the sidewalk than I.
13. Be different. If you're being different while being yourself then you're onto something.
14. Read. Some of the happiest people I know are readers.
15. Express yourself. To yourself mostly.
16. Don't try overly hard to make others happy. The most intensely miserable people of all time are those who slave to win approval from others which they will never get anyway because no one can respect anyone who does that. It's a massive waste of time.
17. Let yourself be present at the moment of someone's death. -And birth. At some point, you will have, quite without trying, the chance to see someone die or be borne. Do not shrink away from it, look directly at it, don't judge it as gruesome or ugly. Look right at it, you will walk away different. It is nothing like in the movies or television. The change will be substantial and good. Even peaceful. That is real life.
18. I don't overly identify with my physical support. I don't make the mistake of thinking I am my body. If you've done number 17 you'll realize that people are energy. Energy which is very briefly, very temporarily in a body, but that people are not their bodies. The body has it's place, but it's not your true you, nor your true home. When you stop identifying with your physical support you will have fewer experiences of this world and more experiences beyond this world, which is what you want.
19. I don't overeat.
20. I am eager to love.
21. Eager to forgive.
22. I am eager to laugh.
23. Eager to listen.
24. Avoid people that do not ask you about yourself when you see them, or who do not pause to let you speak when they are talking. Communication is both talking and then listening. People have forgotten this. I've had people tell me about things, events, places and people I knew better than they but who never stopped to ask me about it. I just smile and move on.
25. It is my belief that fruit is a mood stabilizer. It works, it also produces a subtle lift.
26. Eat happy food: Processed food tends toward boredom and depression. Real flavors favor inspiration and action. Your food has a very specific mood effect, just like taking a pill.
27. Live somewhere that puts you in state of wonder year round.
27. Have many enthusiasms. Earnestly feed them.
28. Whether they have died or are just in the next room-- Whenever you miss someone, miss them with a smile and not with tears. It will feel very different. For you, and for them.
29. Talk to the people who you have loved who are now dead. They can hear you, and even respond. If you speak honestly and listen deeply. Even someone alive and far away can hear you if you speak to them and you can hear them. Distance means nothing.
30. Learn to say "I don't know" and have it not diminish your sense of yourself. It's ridiculous that people think they have to know everything all the time.
31. Learn to say "I'm sorry". Nothing you've EVER done "wrong" affects your true value which is beyond the things of this world. You are a divine expression of the most mystical power in the Universe. Who cares if you don't want to do something or don't know how. Even when you are messing up, you're still loveable and worthy of love.
32. You are not better or worse than anyone else. Don't put people on pedestals, unless you'll put everyone on one. Including yourself.
33. Nothing you do is more important than who you are. If you've achieved great things in your job but your loved ones don't know your heart or haven't felt your care, you're messing up. Big time. The accomplishments in the lab, on the computer, the book you wrote, the breakthrough .. the PHD program .. everything you achieve means nothing if you haven't connected deeply with the people you've loved the most. WHY DO THIS? Because if you do .. then you realize that the love feeling that comes from the commitment to the relationship .. is closer to who you really are than even the body you are in.
34. I remember that I am connected to every other living person and every living thing in this world as if cells on one giant body the farthest limits and reaches of I could never see or even hope to see.
If one thing on this list helps one person, I'm glad I shared it.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
I fell off the chair this morning when I hit the Huffington Post and came across an article that says, "
Here's another link. When a company that is largely run by homophobes in a homophobic industry that I used to work in finally/well almost gives in and creates an AD specifically targeting gay men only to have YOU TUBE pull it, it just goes to show how they are desperate and deeply troubled but unfortunately still run by religious hypocritical bigots.
Thanks for the laughter G.M. I needed it but I don't want your costly, gas guzzling crap made pieces of junk.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
There is nothing wrong with being a cunt. A woman nowadays has to be ruthless and ambitious in order to be successful just as men. But don't be to those that support you. Takes years to earn fans and if you make the wrong move, only seconds to lose em.
A fan came up to her to give flowers and she brushed the kid away and cameras caught it. Here's the link.
Miss Fox: Who the fuck do you think you are? You don't fucking do that even if cameras are not looking. Whats even worse is the phony apology you gave in an interview to try and quell the incident. When a young fan did the same for Paris Hilton who I also dislike, she hugged and kissed the kid. Hilton may be a rich, spoiled kid from L.A. that's always in the tabloids, but at least she's more real and genuine and she gives her fans what they want.
Your second fuck-up is criticizing the director of two movies that made you a star. Talk about biting the hand that feeds you. Keep it up, and your 15 mins of fame will be up soon enough. You'll end up making porn 'cuz the only thing you have going for you is your good looks for now as you can't act for shit.
And to think that the studios were actually considering you to play Wonder Woman. Let them keep searching. You are not deserving to play a role that is empowering to all women.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Hard to believe that it's been 10 years since both Victor & I first logged on and began using the internet. I've spoken to many people over the years and some of my friends I met through the world wide web. But it wouldn't have been possible if it hadn't been for the camera and a little 3.4MB application called ICUII which was available for PC and MAC, and then ISPQ coming along right after ;) . Both had their strengths and weaknesses, but are inferior to what has evolved since then.
Yahoo came along and made the video chat even more personal but it was still not that smooth. Then the creators of a notorious file-sharing program revolutionized the way we communicate again with online video cam. Paving the way for online peer-to-peer video through many sites another amazing IM called Skype which to date has over 300 million users worldwide and growing. Last night I said my final goodbye to ISPQ and removed it off of my PC.
Thanks for helping me stay in touch with everyone over the years.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Mike Taibbi of Rolling Stone Magazine is brilliant and amazing. Here is an article all about Goldman Sachs and their role in robbing the American taxpayers since the 1920s:
The first thing you need to know about Goldman Sachs is that it's everywhere. The world's most powerful investment bank is a great vampire squid wrapped around the face of humanity, relentlessly jamming its blood funnel into anything that smells like money.
Any attempt to construct a narrative around all the former Goldmanites in influential positions quickly becomes an absurd and pointless exercise, like trying to make a list of everything. What you need to know is the big picture: If America is circling the drain, Goldman Sachs has found a way to be that drain — an extremely unfortunate loophole in the system of Western democratic capitalism, which never foresaw that in a society governed passively by free markets and free elections, organized greed always defeats disorganized democracy.
They achieve this using the same playbook over and over again. The formula is relatively simple: Goldman positions itself in the middle of a speculative bubble, selling investments they know are crap. Then they hoover up vast sums from the middle and lower floors of society with the aid of a crippled and corrupt state that allows it to rewrite the rules in exchange for the relative pennies the bank throws at political patronage. Finally, when it all goes bust, leaving millions of ordinary citizens broke and starving, they begin the entire process over again, riding in to rescue us all by lending us back our own money at interest, selling themselves as men above greed, just a bunch of really smart guys keeping the wheels greased. They've been pulling this same stunt over and over since the 1920s — and now they're preparing to do it again, creating what may be the biggest and most audacious bubble yet.
It began in September of last year, when then-Treasury secretary Paulson made a momentous series of decisions. Although he had already engineered a rescue of Bear Stearns a few months before and helped bail out quasi-private lenders Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac, Paulson elected to let Lehman Brothers — one of Goldman's last real competitors — collapse without intervention. ("Goldman's superhero status was left intact," says market analyst Eric Salzman, "and an investment-banking competitor, Lehman, goes away.") The very next day, Paulson greenlighted a massive, $85 billion bailout of AIG, which promptly turned around and repaid $13 billion it owed to Goldman. Thanks to the rescue effort, the bank ended up getting paid in full for its bad bets: By contrast, retired auto workers awaiting the Chrysler bailout will be lucky to receive 50 cents for every dollar they are owed.
Immediately after the AIG bailout, Paulson announced his federal bailout for the financial industry, a $700 billion plan called the Troubled Asset Relief Program, and put a heretofore unknown 35-year-old Goldman banker named Neel Kashkari in charge of administering the funds. In order to qualify for bailout monies, Goldman announced that it would convert from an investment bank to a bank-holding company, a move that allows it access not only to $10 billion in TARP funds, but to a whole galaxy of less conspicuous, publicly backed funding — most notably, lending from the discount window of the Federal Reserve. By the end of March, the Fed will have lent or guaranteed at least $8.7 trillion under a series of new bailout programs — and thanks to an obscure law allowing the Fed to block most congressional audits, both the amounts and the recipients of the monies remain almost entirely secret.
Converting to a bank-holding company has other benefits as well: Goldman's primary supervisor is now the New York Fed, whose chairman at the time of its announcement was Stephen Friedman, a former co-chairman of Goldman Sachs. Friedman was technically in violation of Federal Reserve policy by remaining on the board of Goldman even as he was supposedly regulating the bank; in order to rectify the problem, he applied for, and got, a conflict-of-interest waiver from the government. Friedman was also supposed to divest himself of his Goldman stock after Goldman became a bank-holding company, but thanks to the waiver, he was allowed to go out and buy 52,000 additional shares in his old bank, leaving him $3 million richer. Friedman stepped down in May, but the man now in charge of supervising Goldman — New York Fed president William Dudley — is yet another former Goldmanite.
The collective message of all of this — the AIG bailout, the swift approval for its bank-holding conversion, the TARP funds — is that when it comes to Goldman Sachs, there isn't a free market at all. The government might let other players on the market die, but it simply will not allow Goldman to fail under any circumstances. Its edge in the market has suddenly become an open declaration of supreme privilege. "In the past it was an implicit advantage," says Simon Johnson, an economics professor at MIT and former official at the International Monetary Fund, who compares the bailout to the crony capitalism he has seen in Third World countries. "Now it's more of an explicit advantage."