I'm not sure why I'm posting this. I guess you can call it a personal log I suppose.
It will be 4 months since I joined 24-hour fitness. I'm still unsure as to what the fuck I'm doing. Does anybody really know when they decide to exercise and take better care of themselves? Fuck it.
Again, my main reason is get in better shape, lose weight, get stronger, and this is the only thing I have complete control over.....ME. I can't control the shit economy, shit-for-brains people, or life in general but I can control me. It's been a great way to vent serious anger.....and boy do I have a lot of it. A friend asked me one time "why do I work out so late?" (after 11:00pm or so) and the reason being is that I don't like competing for the machines against anyone else AND I enjoy my peace and quiet. The other reason is that "either I hit the weights or I go into San Francisco and beat the shit outta couple of self-serving pussy whores that fucked me over that I hate", LOL.
Everyone laughed at that post. Call me an asshole but I was being honest. People talk and I know that message was "relayed" along. Must be hard to sleep with one eye open not knowing if or when karma strikes back.
I still get chest pains from time to time but nowhere near as frequent. I'm also hungry as hell eating constantly. The supplement I use it when making smoothies and believe it or not, it's actually quite delicious when mixed with fruit and other natural juices. I also made a decision that from now on, I'll be hitting the weights Monday through Friday with my weekends giving me the time to rest.
One way or another I'm sticking to this.